What The Hell Am I Doing? Confessions Of An Anxious Mermaid
Hi! *waves awkwardly* This is not what my first post was supposed to look like, but as with most things in my life, things didn't go as planned. Sorry I'm a mess. Also, sorry for apologizing. My therapist told me I have to stop doing that.
Most of you know me from Salty Mermaid Entertainment, which is a comedy-based platform. Over there, we make funny videos and memes and mostly recently, picture books. Over here... well, over here I'm gonna be talking about the less fun aspects of my life like anxiety, anger, disappointment, self-loathing and the fear of being happy. (Yeah, that's an actual thing. You can read more about that through my post that was published on Filter Free Parents.)
There will still be some comedic aspects over here. What can I say? I had a lot of trauma in my childhood and now I don't know how not to inject humor into uncomfortable situations. I'm the person who might accidentally laugh during a breakup or funeral. Once - true story- my mom was having a medical issue and she told me I might need to drive her to the hospital or call an ambulance. My response was to giggle uncontrollably and sweat profusely.
I digress a lot actually, so be prepared for that if you're planning to stick around here and read my future posts. I hope you'll find that a charming aspect of my personality, and not a super annoying one, because believe me, that's a mild flaw compared to the rest of 'em.
Maybe I'll start off talking about mom life and end up on a long rant about pineapples that aren't ripe enough and you'll smile to yourself and think, Oh, that Jenn, she's such a digresser.
Holy shit. I didn't know "digresser" is actually a word, but autocorrect isn't trying to change it. Noice.
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Have I scared everyone off yet? My therapist says I have to stop doing that, too.
Okay, so anyway... My main goal with this blog is to share these uglier aspects of my life, because let's be honest, that's therapeutic for me personally, but also, I hope that anyone who reads it who finds themselves struggling with these same issues will feel less alone. I'm also planning to share some of my personal tips and helpful information I've learned through the years, so another huge focus will be adequate & creative self care as well as body positivity and self- acceptance.
I'm not arrogant enough to think I've got it all figured out or that I'm qualified to make a real difference in the world. But I've noticed that when I've shared some of my experiences and thoughts with my small platform, I always receive a lot of messages and comments from people who relate. I just want to continue to offer encouragement to those people.
If you struggle with anxiety or low self-esteem, let me help lighten your burden, not because I believe I'm any stronger than you, but because I know how heavy it is to carry alone.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Jenn Scott Pickett is a freelance writer for hire who specializes in parenting and lifestyle content. She is half of the comedy duo that makes up Salty Mermaid Entertainment based in Atlanta, GA. In her free time - Wait. She's a mom of three. She doesn't have any free time. Learn more by clicking here.